If I go down, I’m gonna go down smoking and drinking.
My heart has been acting up. It has gone from bad to fucked. Last night the pain was excruciating that I had to tell my brother from another mother but from a different father, monjamagic about it. It’s not that i’m scared or anything, I just needed to tell someone about it just in case. And I didn’t want to tell my folks because they already have a lot of shit to take care of. Bah.
I think that I should stop smoking, drinking alcohol and tons of coffee. That’s fucked. I’m fucked. HAHA!
I am Benison, and I am dying. :]